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在這個繁忙而又無奈的學習之季﹐使我想起了爸爸那虛弱的身體﹐媽媽那殘廢的右手﹐還在拼命地幹活﹐為我付出他們那所有的一切﹐爸媽曾對我說﹕“女兒﹐妳就是我們唯一的希望﹐不管我們有多苦多累﹐那怕是過年豬﹐我們也要賣來給妳讀書﹐寧願不吃不穿﹐也要妳讀書﹐希望有朝一日﹐能有一份工作﹐我們當父母的就感到滿足了。”

During this busy school term, I think about my ailing dad, my handicapped mother, and their nevertheless hard work. My parents often tell me that I am their only hope. They say, “No matter how hard we work, even if we sell our prize pig, we’ll get you through school. We rather not eat or buy clothes. Once you acquire a job, we’ll be happy”.

每當我想起這些﹐使我又有了讀書的欲望﹐可是﹐反過來想想﹐自己家裡那麼窮﹐又能夠把五年大專讀完嗎﹖爸媽只能在家拼死拼活﹐起早摸黑地幹活﹐可是連過年的米都還要用好不容易掙到的一點點錢來買﹐又還要盤我這個半年就要花兩三千元錢的我﹐又能承擔的了嗎﹖爸爸年老體弱﹐又不能出門打工﹐媽媽那殘廢的手更不能作些什麼雙手能幹的事。可是父母卻對我有那麼大的願望﹐這是為甚麼呢﹖那就是天下父母誰不望自己子女成龍成鳳呢﹖

莫說成龍﹐對于我的父母來說﹐只能成鳳了﹐因為我只有三姐妹﹐家裡沒哥沒弟﹐只有兩個姐姐﹐她們讀書時成積也非常不錯﹐但是由于家境貧寒﹐父母實在無能為力﹐只好小學二﹑三年級就輟學了﹐現在她們已遠走他鄉﹐因沒文化水平﹐去了一個一貧如洗的家庭﹐不怕大家笑話﹐她們去了同一家﹐也就是兩兄弟﹐明知貧窮﹐但也許是緣份註定吧﹗我的父母們極不同意﹐可是又能怎樣呢﹖現在實行婚姻自由﹐只有窮上加窮了。

Every time I think of my parents’ words, I gain ambition to study. But then I remember the poor state of my family. How can I finish school? My dad and mom work hard but barely scrape enough to get by. Each term at school costs 2000-3000 Yuan. My dad is old and cannot leave the house for work. My mom has a handicapped right hand so she cannot have any occupations that require heavy labor of her hands. They have placed so much confidence in me. All parents want their sons and daughters to excel. Unfortunately, my parents do not have any sons. There are three daughters in our family. I have two older sisters. They we both doing well in school but were forced to quit school after second grade due to financial reasons.

My older sisters married and moved to another province. Without an education, they both married into another poverty-stricken family. Frankly, they married into the same family by marrying two brothers. I suppose it was fate. My parents did not approve but there was nothing they could do.

我也曾冥思苦想﹐讀書嗎﹖不讀吧﹗眼睜睜地看到同齡人都高高興興去讀書了﹐留下自己一人﹐在家幹什麼呢﹖為爸﹑媽幹活吧﹗可是父母一心想讓我有個出頭之日﹐她們看到我一人在家也是十分心酸難受的﹐讀書吧﹗每當看到父母那漸漸衰老的面龐﹐再加上媽媽那只冷也痛﹐熱也痛的右手﹐還在為我做這做那﹐我心裡極不好受﹐又不能在父母面前悲傷流淚﹐因為我知道父母是非常心疼我的﹐看到我哭﹐他們會更傷心﹐我只能在離開他們後痛痛快快地哭吧﹗讓我的眼淚能洗掉心中所有的痛苦。

I have often entertained the thought of quitting school but what would I do at home. Perhaps I can help my parents but they have placed such high hopes on me. If I stayed at home, they would be sad and disappointed. I can stand hot and cold pain but it hurts more to disappoint my parents. I cannot be depressed in front of my parents because they would be miserable as well. I can only cry when they are not around.

就拿這學期來說吧﹐也許大家不知道我是如何走進學校來的﹐那就讓我說說﹐我的學費是來自父母餵了一年多的牛崽﹐賣得700元錢﹐但是還不夠學費﹐後來﹐我到銀行去貸款﹐說了好久﹐老板還是不肯貸﹐他說我家的貸款已超過了數目﹐不能再貸了﹐那是因為我上學期已貸了二千元的學費﹐也難怪他這麼說﹐不過對于一個渴求知識的我來說﹐只要我有機會能把五年的學業讀完﹐這些錢我下決心一定會把它還清的。

可是現在說又有什麼用呢﹖畢竟還是花錢的時候﹐又不是掙錢的時候﹐所以﹐他也沒有同情我這個可憐的女孩子﹐當時﹐我對求學已感到大失所望﹐我真的好恨自己﹐恨自己沒有條件讀書﹐為甚麼老是苦苦地想讀書﹖真是處於上天無路﹐入地無門的時刻﹐心想﹐假如有一天能夠解脫這樣的困難﹐那該有多好啊﹗

此時此刻﹐我真的意想不到﹐一個從沒有教過我的好心老師﹐怎麼會看到了那個偷偷痛哭的女孩﹖於是他主動地走過來問我﹐“你是貸款讀書吧﹗”我點點頭﹐他又問我﹐“你需要多少錢﹖”我說﹐“500元或300元都可以。”於是老師立刻從自己包裡掏出300元錢遞到我手裡﹐此時﹐我不知道說什麼好﹐只擠出了聲﹐“謝謝老師。” 就這樣使我又有了求學的希望。第二天﹐就能夠與同學們一起走上了上學的旅程。

Let us talk about how I managed to stay in school this semester. My tuition came from a year of savings we had stored up from selling our cows. However, that was not enough. It only totaled 700 Yuan. I tried negotiating a loan from the bank but they would not lend me any money. My family was over our credit line. I had already borrowed 2000 Yuan last year. Being determined to go to school, I tried to convince the loan officer that I would be able to pay it all back. There was no point in our discussion though, since we both knew that I would not be making money for a long time. They felt no pity for me. I felt discouraged and hated myself for not having the ability to go to school. I sat outside staring up into the sky thinking to myself that it would be great if I could leave my situation. At this moment, a teacher who had never taught me came over and saw me through my troubles. He walked over and asked why I was upset. I told him that I lacked the money to go to school. He asked me how much I needed. I told him around 300 Yuan. He gave me 300 Yuan on the spot. I was speechless and could only utter a word of thanks. His generosity instilled hope in me again. I started school the next day.

在我人生的道路上﹐我遇到了好多好多的好心人﹐有一件事使我記憶猶新﹐那就是在小學五年級時﹐窮人的孩子嘛﹐說來說去又是沒有錢讀書﹐新來的班主任硬是不肯發新書﹐我真不好意思面對同學們﹐看到同學們一個個地走上台﹐領下新書﹐可是我卻坐在位子上﹐久久地等待老師叫同學的名字﹐等啊等﹐老師就是不叫到我的名字﹐直到同學們個個都領完了書﹐高高興興地走出了教室﹐只剩下一個孤獨又痛苦的我﹐想向老師說上一切﹐可是﹐說上幾句﹐老師還是不肯發書﹐對于一個小女孩來說﹐處在這樣尷尬時刻﹐我的喉嚨在哽咽不能再說下去了。

後來﹐我忍不住這樣的痛苦﹐一個人躲在樓梯的角落裡哭泣﹐心想﹐假如現在有一個地洞﹐讓我能跳進去﹐永遠不要見到同學與老師﹐那該有多好啊﹗可是卻不能﹐到了我不敢再想的此刻﹐突然從後面傳來一聲﹐“招弟”我回頭一看﹐啊﹗原來是我四年級時的班主任楊老師﹐他對我說﹐“妳跟我到辦公室一下。”這時﹐我想又有了一點希望﹐於是毫不猶豫地跟著老師走到了他的辦公室﹐老師從抽屜裡拿了55元錢來給我﹐對我說﹐“妳快拿去交給班主任﹐等一下新書發完了。“ 此刻﹐我不知如何是好﹐想說些什麼卻說不出來﹐老師好像看透了我的心裡﹐他接著說﹐”快去﹐只要妳努力讀書就行了﹐。“於是﹐我破涕為笑連蹦帶跳地去找班主任﹐終於領到了新書﹐這時﹐朝思暮想的願望實現了﹐心裡輕鬆多了。

In my life, I have met so many kind- hearted people. There is another time I recall when a similar situation happened. In 5th grade, I did not have money as usual. The new dean would not let me receive my textbooks since I had not paid. I was so embarrassed because I knew I would not be getting any books. The teacher called out the names of the students in the class one by one. Each student went up, collected their books and left the room. Soon, I was the only one left sitting. I wanted to tell the teacher my financial situation but the teacher stopped my explanation midway. She would not hear of it. I sat in the staircase of the school and cried. I wanted to crawl into a hole in the ground and never come out. From behind me, I heard someone yell my name. It was my 4th grade teacher. I began to feel some optimism. We went to his office and he gave me 55 Yuan. He told me to give it to my dean. I did not know what to say. My teacher saw my blank expression and told me to hurry before the books are sold out. He left me with two words: work hard. Thus, I made it through the 5th grade.

我的人生就如一個五味瓶﹐酸﹑甜﹑苦﹑辣﹑鹹都嘗完﹐也許你聽了我上面所說的這一切的一切﹐也了解了我人生所遇到困難和挫折﹐只是為了”貧窮“二字吧﹗在生活中不管我受到多大的挫折﹐多大的痛苦﹐只要有機會﹐我永遠不放棄自己的學業﹐努力奮鬥﹐創造自己七彩的人生。

常說﹐”沒有經受磨難的人生﹐不是真正的人生﹐我卻為自己的人生而感到可憐而又驕傲。“可憐又是什麼呢﹖那就是我的痛苦沒有邊際。驕傲呢﹖那就是在我痛苦到極點時能遇上無數的好心人幫助我﹐我為生活在這樣的社會裡而感到無比的榮幸﹐我願意接受生活對我的折磨﹐也願意想方法克服一切磨難﹐我相信天無絕人之路﹐總有一天﹐我能從痛苦無奈的環境中解脫出來﹐那還得靠大家的幫助嘍﹗

My life is like a spice rack. I have tasted saltiness, bitterness, sourness and sweetness. Maybe after you have read this, you will know what it feels like to have been affected by poverty. I know no matter what, I will not give up on my education. I will work hard and fight through it all. They say that a life without hardship is a life not lived. I think of my own life and feel both self-pity and pride. Pity because the destitution never seems to end. Pride because I have survived it all. I accept my current situation but am constantly working towards a better tomorrow. One day I will leave this sorry place behind. I will come out victorious.

自我介紹人﹕龍招弟2003年3月13日